3 am

tick tock
at 3 am I awake
alarm set for 7

I study the patterns
of my closed eyelids
colors without names
shapes without edges

at 4 I get a drink

I try my right side
my back
and my left

I stretch my legs straight
curl them to my chest

at 5 I’m still awake

there is time
if it happens now

at 6 I stop fighting

at 7 I fall asleep