Being Her
Birth
when you ask me to share my journey the discovery of myself what is your motive? underneath are you mentally gatekeeping? asking is she a SHE? so I may verify what details should I know about your conception?
Being Her
Poems of gender, emergence, and the sacred act of naming oneself.
Being Her
Passing
every woman is unique so I don’t mind you knowing I’m transgender there’s only one critic whose gaze cuts deep she is brutal she is kind she is Satan she is Christ when she says I don’t pass I wither beneath her scorn when she says
Being Her
Transition Anniversary
a rattle in the mind or is it my body? I can’t tell who is speaking the voices are all familiar but they layer on each other like a drum machine random notes incomprehensible melodies they speak in fragments and yet, somehow have more power than full complete novels
Being Her
Tucking
not me but attached to me part of me but not me some say it defines me If it’s here I’ll at least keep it tucked
Being Her
Getting Ready
I did my eyes put on lipstick curled my hair slipped into my black dress patterned with pink and green mid-summer branches the woman was always beautiful have I done it? I check the mirror the man in my head laughs snickers pounding he yells YOU LOOK RIDICULOUS! Voices a
Being Her
Home
I was a child, I was home my sister and her friends playing made up things more real than reality you can hold a book you cannot hold a word crawling under the large pine tree we entered our house our school room our little shop goofing off for hours
Being Her
Dysphoria
a gluey shadow slowly hugs me tightly wrapping arms around my head twisting fingers down my ears echoing a haunting lullaby words sucking on my soul eyes dribble wet from a wrung-out mind
Being Her
Blue Suit
I saw a man today in a soft blue suit he glowed in a radiant texture I never did glow like that now I wear skirts and dresses I glow
Being Her
Little Girls
I was a little girl when patriarchy told me to be a boy little girls obey like a precision cookie cutter the role is well defined little girls conform I read the script played the role and put the costume on little girls are invisible I loved the patriarchy I